This is extremely difficult for me to post, but I feel its important to share. I found this pic of me looking through some photos my grandma sent me a while back, this was from around 2005, before I joined the Air Force and at probably the lowest point of my entire life.
I was in an emotionally and physically abusive relationship, had terrible self esteem, and since I wasn’t able to express my pain I drowned it with food and alcohol.
I cried nearly every night, unhappy with my body, how I felt, and to be honest there were days I wasn’t sure it was worth continuing on.... Depression, binge eating and stress left me nearly 40 pounds overweight, but my emotional baggage felt like an elephant sitting on my heart.
I had strayed away from my faith, angry that I was in such a terrible situation with what seemed like no way out. But God spoke to me one day, after I got off the phone with my dad, who I hadn’t talked to in a long time...He said...”choose”...just one word... Something changed in that moment, as if a switch had flipped, and I understood that everything I was suffering through was a result of my poor choices, and that the way out of the pit was to CHOOSE life.
To choose self love.
To choose nutritious food for my body.
To choose to abstain from drinking.
To separate myself from the abuse that was destroying me from the inside out.
I chose to take control of my life, with God holding my hand every step of the way.
I have to laugh a little when people ask how I stay so positive, and exclaim “you’ve always been so fit!” That couldn’t be further from the truth...but I’m blessed to say that I have transformed mind, body and soul in the last 12 years.
I haven’t always been fit.
I’m not genetically gifted or special.
I have “bad” days often.
But at the start of each day I have a choice. To let my circumstances dictate my happiness and health, or consciously DECIDE to take action to foster personal growth and better habits for myself.
You have that choice too, and if I can help in any way to build you up and make those choices easier each day, please don’t hesitate to reach out to me!
#ichoose #selflove #dailygrowth
Kelly is a loving wife, mother, veteran, life-long athlete, personal trainer, and self taught cook with a passion for helping others. She hopes you will be inspired to live a healthier lifestyle while enjoying delicious meals cultivated in her home, and shared at your own tables.